blogiversary

i was away from my internet access module
when the day came & went
off doing some real life

i can't quite believe it's been a whole year
(and a couple days)
since sugarbutch inspired me
and i started posting here about
fucking my girlfriend
and then, later, a few more things
but still mostly
fucking my girlfriend

i thought i'd repost
my original entry
from which i swiped my own line
for a blog title, etc.
i find, a year later
my kidneys are still astonished

against the door frame

space holding wonderland
my tongue tied blue
trying to out-dream in the front of my head
the suspicious lizard stem at the rear
the skull fulcrums, spins there

on my left hand i smell her still
her coming flash powder burned
brilliant into my breasts
my belly, my thighs, my ears
my heart
my kidneys are still astonished

the lizard licks her lips
her eyes and
the sweat that ran down

i never knew i could be
so rapt wide-eyed, secret door
surprise present
gratefully me